Equal Marriage

MPs have just voted for Gay Marriage in the UK. 400 to 175 I think.

This is obviously a good thing, and I don't want to seem depressing but it still shocks me that 175 people (out of 575 presumably) would vote against it. That's 30%!

What right do they think they have to dictate who can get married to whom? 

It infuriates me that closed minded people make it their mission to try and prevent other people from being happy. 

It was the same feeling as a few months ago when it was voted that women still can't be Bishops (Although clearly this was a better outcome).

Why do horrible little people think that it is okay to tell others how to live their lives when they aren't harming anyone or anything? The injustice of things like this make me so so angry. I am not eloquent enough to express how I feel but I can imagine that a lot of people feel this too.

I just want to scream at these people until they understand that they have no logical and reasonable justification to their idiotic and old fashioned ideas.

I will also never understand why some religious people take certain parts of the bible completely literally whilst ignoring whole chunks of it! 

The Fault in our Stars

I read 'The Fault in our Stars' the other night. Literally. I got it Thursday morning and stayed up until half past one reading it.

It is so beautifully honest in a brutal way. I don't want to give away any spoilers (just in case anyone reads this ha) but it made me cry several times. John Green writes so stunningly and truthfully that I can't stop re reading it, and every time I do read it I get something else from it.

I would love to be an author so much. I love to read and write stories (not so much essays).

But I don't think I have the skill to write an entire novel and keep the plot wound so tight and perfect, and make the characters flawed and realistic human beings.

So for now I will be content in reading and fangirling over talented authors.

My Weekend

I did my first actual shift at work last night. I was terrible. I'm not too worried because everyone said that I would be terrible on my first shift and that they were terrible when they started too.

My next shift is Monday.

I went to a party afterwards. It was okay. I got a bit emotional but I think everyone is pretty emotional and stressed at the moment.

I am doing work today (and tomorrow) and I have discovered a good way to get more work done. Listening to piano music helps me to concentrate more and it is really relaxing.

I feel like I really need to just knuckle down for a couple of months and really try my best or I know I will regret it so much.

I can tell that wont happen but if I aim for 'knuckling down' I should at least work a bit harder.

Les Mis

My friend gave me the soundtrack to Les Mis today and I've come over all patriotic towards France. It is making me more emotional to listen to all the songs than the actual film did- especially Empty Chairs and On My Own.

It is having a strange effect on me, half of me feel an intense sadness at history and all the death and poverty that still exists today... but the other half of me is selfish and self-pitying.

You know when you really like someone... as in like like them... and they just think of you as a friend? Yeah.

I feel you Eponine...

Pizza

I went for my induction at Pizza Hut yesterday...

It was pretty fun; I didn't have to do anything really, only learn how to work the computers... and I got a free pizza.

There may come a day when I am sick to death of pizza and not excited by the prospect of a free one... but it is not this day. (Yes that may be from LoTR.)

I thought I would feel better about things now that I have a way of earning money but to be honest I feel just as stressed as before.

Things are starting to get to me which is silly because nothing terrible is going on.

I worry about getting an offer from my favourite uni (the only one that hasn't replied yet- typical), i'm worried about my grades because they're pretty poor at the mo, i'm worried about money (still) and i'm worried about boys.

I know that these are standard concerns but it doesn't stop them from making me feel crappy.

I am most worried about going off to university and leaving my family and friends behind. I am going to miss people so so much. It is so soon now and I do not feel ready at all.

But hey- I have pizza.

Les Miserables

I went to see the film Les Mis today.

There aren't even words for how powerful it is. I don't know how it manages to make the audience feel complete compassion for that quantity of characters in two hours... but it does... then it kills them.

The bit where I actually lost my shit was when Eponine died. Her story was the most relatable for me I guess- since i'm not on the run from police, leading a revolution etc

I would definitely recommend seeing it, but you should be warned that a.) you will cry like a baby and b.) you will be singing the songs indefinitely.

Pizza Hut

I got a job!

I am now an employee of Pizza Hut. It is a takeaway one so I don't have to wait on tables or anything.

My jobs are to answer the phone and/or make up little cardboard boxes. I earn £3.68 an hour- minimum wage for a 17 yr old and I get to wear a black 'Pizza Hut' polo shirt.

It is one of the shittiest jobs going that I can think of but I am so ridiculously happy.

I feel so terrible asking my parents for money all the time ( I know, I know... first world problems)
and now I can start to be more responsible and actually pay my way a little bit.